I've been avoiding everyone lately, I haven't felt like talking to anybody about anything although at the same time I'm seeing more people this week then I have in over two months but yet I still haven't said much about me and what I'm doing and HOW I'm doing I'm avoiding the subject cause I really don't know how I am. I know that sounds weird but I have no freakin' clue how I am. I'm cranky and bored and just want to shut the world out and so thats what I've been up to. My hun is feeling the after affects of it, he's trying his darnedest to make me react to him but I just don't have it in me. I don't feel like smiling, even though a fake one seems to suffice, I don't feel like laughing or talking or having any contact at all I just want to be left alone. All alone. I wish I could take a trip somewhere by myself in a cottage in the back woods, sounds like the beginnings of a cheesy horror flick but anyway, I just want to get away and not have to focus on anyone but me. I don't want to deal with my friends, my family or my bf I just want to be with me. How crazy does that sound? Pretty crazy. *sigh* come on weekend so I can hole up in my bed and never come out.
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