Holy jumpins' just realized that oh yah I have a blog and that I haven't even looked at it in almost a year! So whats new in my world you ask?

1. My little precious baby girl turned into a tantrum throwing, snotty nosed, fever ridden, demanding toddler. There are days when I think holy hell what did I ever do to deserve a kid like this... and then the next minute I'm snuggling with a little miss who's covering me with kisses and telling me she loves me and squeezing the life out of me, makes it all worth while.

2. The husband and I are going through hard times, we never realized the strain that having a kid would put on a marriage. Intimacy occurs very rarely and most words are spoken with anger or spite. Alittle bit of blame is thrown in on his part on who's idea it was in the first place to have a kid. I remind him that it takes two people to create and human and he enjoyed the creating part so he'll just have to deal with his offspring. We're working on our relationship though, day by day, its getting better, not fantastic, lovey dovey, picture perfect but better.

3. I took up running outside, hardcore. I've run two 5K's so far and am looking to run another one in Sept and then another one in October... possibly a 10k then but I'm not sure. I've been taking part in a run group at the gym and today is actually our last run and its a big one. I'm excited but apprehensive about doing it so I'm still debating whether I'm attending or not, I'm such a chickensh!t sometimes.

4. Life is getting overwhelming. Work is crazy some days and boring the next. I'm having a hard time focusing on tasks at hand ever since i came back off Maternity leave my work ethic has hit the fan but I'm working hard on getting my groove back its just taking me longer then I thought. Its also a lot tougher to work all day in town and drive the hour back home only to work more at home (taking care of a family) and then just go to bed and start over again 7 hours later.

5. I feel like I'm not connecting with my extended family anymore. I miss hanging out with them, i miss seeing my grandpa every time he came down to my parents I miss the freedom to pick up and go whenever I like and not have to worry about who was going to look after my kid or bringing my kid with and worry about how she's going to take the whole day. Life as a parent is truly a change, a good one but a tough one when you are an independent person like I am.

Other than that things are about the same, life is life and I'm living it. I'm sure there are more rants I could write about and will now that i remember I have this thing haha, next time.