Christmas Update

I had a great Christmas, it was full of family, traveling, fighting and loving it was superb. I promise to update with more details and pictures later on especially once our big new years party happens tomorrow night. We've rented a hotel room with a bunch of friends and are getting liqoured up and dancing the night away at the hotel bar. Can't wait! I promise I'll write more and tell you all about it!

The weekend is so close I can taste it

So its Friday, I had to drive my car into work today that was the shortest drive ever! The traffic was non-existant, all those lucky people who are off work today because of the Holidays I envy you! Anyway, I got into work feeling not too shabby, half an hour later I'm all achy and feverish and feeling like I wanna die. The good thing so far today has been my boss giving me a present for Christmas, cute little cards with different games written on the back of them. Yesterday we had our own little Christmas party here at work, cupcakes were eaten, so was pound cake and cinnamon buns and we all huddled around our office Christmas tree and unwrapped our gifts from work. I got an IPod shuffle, an adapter so I can plug it into my car and listen to my tunes on the stereo and six different coloured skins for it. Way too awesome. I could not however for the life of me get it to work. The Boss and I were trying desperately to get it to play the songs I had loaded onto it but nothing would happen, nada, zilch, zero. I was dreading that I would have to return my new toy without even having the fun of trying it out! I did bring it home though and it turned out that I needed to update the little devil. Okay so I'm asking this, why in the world when you buy something brand spanking new right from the manufacturer itself, would you have to download something from their site to get it to work? And if this is the factor for everyone who ever bought one why doesn't it state so in the manual that you have to download this in order to get your IPod to be a good little music player and play your music. I was so fustrated. I did however enjoy listening to my tunes, two hours after I started trying to get them to play. Oh well thems the breaks I can't complain I got an IPod for free.

Now back to my sickiness and praying for the day to be over even though I still have to go Christmas shopping tonight in the craziest industrial park known to man around here. If any of you are in Bayers Lake watch out for my little blue Dodge SX 2.0 I'm going to be driving like a mad woman just so I can get everything done and go home to bed.

Merry Christmas all if I don't get a chance to get back on here this weekend!

Oh My God I'm Tired

Okay so this week is going by way way way too slowly, its Wednesday but it feels like it should be Friday and I am just dying from exhaustion because I can't sleep due to the mixture of excitement about the holidays and the break from work and also due to the fact that the bf is on holidays already and has taken to staying up late and waking me up when he comes to bed. I lie awake for almost an hour after heading to bed wishing sleep upon myself but the clock still clicks by and I lie, eyes wide open, dying to get some rest knowing that I have to get up early and do my whole routine again. I'm so jealous of those who are on vacation right now I wish I could be them ahhh to sleep in and do nothing but Christmas activities all day, such as baking and wrapping and visiting. I have to do baking still whenever I find the time my life has become one huge ball of hecticity. (I know thats not even a word I like making them up.) Anyway, on to my description from last nights hullabaloo. The bf went to his regular Tuesday night hockey but they were having a huge party afterwards at the rink with just the boys. The initial plan was for me to drive him to hockey and then if he desperately needed me to pick him up he could call me. However he changed his plans as he always tends to do. So he takes his car deciding not to drink and if he did drink he would get a ride home no problem. So I do my usual Tuesday night thing watch my Gilmore Girls and then clean up the dishes and do some work on one of my many hobbies, last night it was knitting. I head to bed around 11:00pm and am in a deep sleep by 11:30. Suddenly I am shocked awake by the bf yelling at the top of his lungs 'HONEY I'M HOME!' he was drunk as a skunk. He comes into the bedroom where I am trying to roll over and go back to sleep, bundling up in the nice warm covers and dying to just conk right back out. No such luck hes on top of me petting my head and kissing my face and pleading with me to take him back to the rink to his car so he can get his hockey gear. It was 12:45 in the morning and I have to get up and catch my ride at 5:30 am so I am quite po'd by this point. Of course I cave to his whims and drive him back to the rink to get his gear and his phone AND his wallet the silly nut. He is weaving all over the place when he walks so I have to steady him the whole time and not only carry the heavy hockey gear with him but carry him also it was nuts. We get back home by ten after one and he drops everything right in the doorway and heads straight for bed. I am left to clean off his hockey skates but did not put away his gear that will be a task for him later. I yearn for bed and its calling out my name so I get undressed again and just start to crawl underneath the covers when all of a sudden the bf heads for the bathroom like a shot. He didn't make it to the toilet but at least he hit the sink. I get up to help him puke the vile alcoholic beverages and food he has consumed out of his body. He direly wants to get his contacts out of his eyes but I do not, I repeat do not touch eyeballs, even the thought of doing so makes me shudder so he sets to the task but can't get them out. I draw up all my strength and try to help but he can't handle it and starts to vomit yet again into the toilet bowl. I am left cleaning up the sink which was disgusting by the way. Then set about getting him into his pajama bottoms and into bed. I finally got back to sleep at 2:30am after a few more trips to the loo with the bf. He's going to be feeling it even worse then I am this morning I know that. Still soooo tired though just want this day to be over so I can crawl into my nice warm bed, underneath my fleece blankets and comforters and curl up with my pillow.

Countdown to the big Holiday Weekend

Its Monday again, The good thing is this weekend went really well. I headed to the local shopping mall and wound up being there for over four hours due to the amount of crowds it was a madhouse in there. The roads were busy, the streets were packed with people and cars and the malls and shopping areas were just crammed with holiday shoppers. I finally finished all my stocking stuffer shopping and finished wrapping the gifts last night thank god thats over now all I have to do is wait till the big day! I was fustrated over the weekend though because I couldn't find a pair of boots, I had the money to spend on a new pair of boots but I couldn't find a pair that suited my fancy. I walked out of every store dejected and yearning to find that one pair of boots that catches my eye and fit my huge feet. Anyway I'm hoping today will go by fast, my cousin is coming into town today to buy me lunch so its going to be a good one so far I cant' wait till its over though so I can go home. Come on Friday!

Winter fun!

So Friday night there was a massive snow storm, it took me over an hour and a half to get home in the van pool. Thank god I didn't have to drive in it that long only from the carpool lot to my home but even then it was scary. Anyway, I get in the house to find the bf playing playstation as per usual hee hee and to my surprise he wanted to know if I wanted to go for a walk in the storm, of course I did! I love walking in the snow, its sooo much fun! Anyway we get all bundled up in our winter garb and head out the door. But as soon as we got to the bottom of our death trap of stairs (lots of stairs always icy) the bf jumped into the snow and started to make a snow ball, my mind goes right to snowball fight! I need to defend myself! So I jumped right into the snow and started to make my own ammo of snowballs but instead of receiving the cold and icy blow from behind that I was expecting I see the bf started to push his snowball through the snow. We were in the process of making a snowman! YAY! I, of course, had to prove that I was the best at making the biggest snowman bottom in the fastest time and I did. We ended up making the hugest snowman ever, it was at least six feet tall, I got some branches from one of the trees that had fallen over this year in the yard while the bf made the facial features on our monstrosity made of snow and dead leaves hahaha. It turned out amazing, pictures were taken, certain anatomically correct elements were added to the snowman and then taken off again for fear of offending others but not till after pictures were taken of course. Nevertheless our snowman was too heavy and it fell forward through the night, it was a blast though!


The next day we walked across the snow covered road to purchase our Christmas tree. Of course the tree was covered in icy snow so we walked it back home and set it out on our front deck to melt in the sun. The bf got antsy and wanted to get it in the house and set up but once we did it started to rain inside! The tree was melting like mad, we had to set out newspaper underneath it just to catch all the water it was nuts! Wouldn't you know just when you think you're done cleaning up a mess another one occurs. Our tree fell over! The stand we had for it was a hand me down from the bfs grandparents and it was broken obviously since the tree fell over. So I head down to our local hardware store and pick out the heaviest metal tree holder they had, upon getting it back home we had to assemble the stand and then set the tree up all over again. No rain this time haha. We finally had our tree in and got our decorations up and we were good to go it was great!

Moving no longer

So we were looking at a new apartment just across the yard from where we are now. Its just a little two bedroom place for 50 bucks more then we pay a month now. Not much bigger then our little apartment really but it had a yard! It was its own little home, with a driveway and back deck and clothesline. So we were planning on definitely moving in when the tenants moved out this month. The bf wanted to make sure our stuff would fit in the place perfectly before we moved in cause there is nothing worse then finding out on moving day that you have a maze in your home because its too small for all your stuff so we were in there over the weekend taking measurements and let me tell you this place was a hellhole! When we first went to look at it the place was crammed to the gills with the present tenants stuff but when it was all empty with only a few boxes left we could actually SEE the place and it was a wreck. The carpets were newer then ours but so pounded down and worn out it was horrid, there were imprints from where their furniture sat forever and rusted into it... ewwwww. Also there were random burn marks all over, not nice, odd and unusually coloured stains in random spots all over the place it was disgusting I almost didn't want to take my shoes off for fear of my socks melting off my feet. Anyway, we went about our measuring because we were in such shock to see the place as it was, while peeking into the bathroom we both realized that there was no way we were ever going to be peeing in there nevertheless going number 2. It looks like one of those bathrooms from the horror movies where the teenager gets locked in and the lights flicker on and off then all of a sudden an axe murderer jumps out of the shower but in the brawl they fall through the rotting wall in the side of the room. Just gross... the storage closet wasn't any better it had holes in the floor and even holes in the wall covered up with plywood and not very well might I add. It was a wonderful home for the resident rodents and stray cats that would definitely be able to get in at any given time through either hole. Just not us at all, so the bf told our landlord that we were not leaving our comfortable and homey apartment for that mess that they called a two bedroom bungalow. She wasn't surprised and we are happy so it all worked out to our advantage. One and a half more years and we're going to start house hunting anyway so I'm happy where we are for now.

My lilac painting I made for my mom for Christmas, I'm soooo proud I almost don't want to give it away! 

My Winter List

I am so excited that winter is in the air... you can smell it on the sharp breeze and the scent of chimney smoke and wood burning in peoples homes. The best indication of the Holiday season though is the Christmas lights. I absolutely love perusing the neighbourhoods looking at peoples homes and seeing how they have decorated for the holidays, some just have wreaths on the door and candles in the window, while others create a whole theme park in the front and back yards of lights and characters and those new fangled blow up creatures that loom over top of everything. They sway and jerk in the breeze coming to a life of their own without having anything but air blown into them its amazing and somehow irksome. Anyway I feel like doing a list of the things that I love and hate about winter so here goes.

Things I love:

- The chimney smoke rolling out of chimneys on a cold winter breeze, oozing out the top and dwindling into the night sky

- The smells and sounds of the winter season, the cool air smell, the smell of wood burning in hearths, the sounds of kids playing in the snow even the sound of the snowplows rolling by makes me smile

- Friends gathering together at coffee shops, all wrapped up in their winter getups pulling off festive mittens and scraves and hats with pom poms

- Milk hot chocolate with mini marshmallows and a candy cane as a stirrer

- The bustle of the stores as everyone gets ready for the Holidays

- Fresh baked goods of any kind just seem to taste better during the winter time especially when they're fresh out of the oven

- The times spent with family, just sitting inside, playing cards and having family time

- Sledding, Skiing, snowball fights, skating, snow forts and snowmen

- Getting a red nose and rosy cheeks

- The warmth of indoors and the feeling of cosiness due to that warmth

- Cuddling up with that special someone to help keep me warm

- Standing out in the snow as it falls from the sky, the feeling of utter joy and trying to catch the flakes on my glove to see what shape it is

- The decorations on houses

- Decorating my home and tree for the holiday season

Things I hate:

- The bitter cold that comes with the days that it never really snows it just freezes

- Wet feet and hands after playing outside

- Runny noses and eyes, we all get it from stepping out of doors and into the frigid air

- Shoveling , enough said.

- The storms that leave you isolated and without power and heat

- The threat of not making it home safely due to the road conditions

- The huge pile of snow that always get plowed into the front of your driveway just as you finish

- Feeling of freezing every last body part off after being outside, my ears, hands, legs, feet, nose and such ache and pin and needle when I come in out of the cold, icky feeling

- The worrying about others who have to travel in horrid weather

Thats about it for now.. I love it more then I hate it thats always a positive thing. Come on winter I'm ready for ya!

Life couldn't get any worse even if it tried

I had the worst weekend ever, but as per usual thats not a surprise. I'm starting to think that I need a change and in a major way. I cried alot this weekend and it was in part by the influence of the bf. I don't know that I'll ever be happy with him again, don't you sometimes wish you could go back to the days when you just met and you're getting to know eachother. When there was more good times then bad ones? I so wish I could. No matter how much I try to make myself happy and try to look on the bright side things just keep happening to make me so upset with myself and who I am and what I am. I've never questioned myself so much as I do now. I agonize over my appearance, a new pimple which I thought would have all but dissapated by now just makes me that much more mad at my body and myself and my life. I stress over everything, I feel all alone and I wish I could just up and make a decision already and change my life and start a new. I love my bf. So much it hurts, but I can't help but wonder if its worth all the pain I have to endure to be with him. Like the song says 'Love Hurts' but I didn't know it had to hurt this much. Oh god I wish I could be someone else.

Life is funny

I ended up laughing my ass off and actually being in a really really good mood last night even I surprised myself. The thing was there was nothing abnormal going on for me that would make my life any different but I just got to thinking about how thankful I am that I have a job, that I'm able to worry about having money to pay my debts and still have enough left over to do some fun stuff... it means I am making money and not stressing about where its going to come from this month. I'm also grateful that I have a family who albeit drives me extremely batty sometimes but that also means that they are around and there for me when I need them and thats amazing. I'm thankful for my wonderful bf and that he hasn't kicked me out of his life yet after all the mood shifts and the drama that is my life plays out he just continues to shake his head, smile and tease, and end up cuddling with me in bed every night. Life is good. I can't wait to go out and pick out our Christmas tree, just driving to that 'u-chop, we tie' makes me so elated and feel so much like I'm ten all over again, just dying to smell that pine smell and get pricked by the needles and stuck to the sap. I can't wait! I have only to wrap the presents I have already bought and start making some decorations for around the apartment and then I'll be in full festive swing. Another reason for my elation could also be the fact that its Friday and I absolutely adore weekends. Come on 4 o'clock and hurry up Christmas I can't wait to celebrate!