So things are progressing rapidly in my life, the summer has hit full force and I am working like a maniac and attempting to make the most of the dwindling daylight hours when I do escape from work. I've turned over a new leaf when it comes to my relationship, I'm in a whole who gives a shit phase. Right now I could care less where the bf has been or what hes been up to, I sometimes actually get dissappointed when I see his car in the yard when I get home, looking forward to spending the night by myself, all by myself. This week hasn't been bad though, the bf has been off doing his own thing when I get home and he usually doesn't get home till after I go to bed so basically he's there to cuddle with like a big teddy bear when I go to sleep and I don't have to deal with any drama or stupid arguments or any of his bs when I get home from work so its been great! He has purchased a piece of land about 10 mins from where we live now and has been talking about clearing it off in the fall and then in a couple years we can put a house on it. I'm excited about it but at the same time I'm not jumping out of my seat itching to have my own place dying to pay off the land so we can get a home kind of excited. Maybe I'm coming to a realization that I might not want that life, but on the other hand what have I been doing over these past almost three years with him? if not trying to build a home, then what? I turned the ripe old age of 26 on the 21st of July and I actually feel old. I'm looking for the wrinkles in the mirror now. I'm worried about my hair dye fading out again and revealing the salt and pepper hair underneath. I miss the years of being a teenager, growing up with my major worry being did I get that assignment done and what should I wear tomorrow. I think everybody goes through that kind of phase I miss highschool but I think mostly I miss the closeness of all my friends. Well anyway, I'm in a lazy mood lately hence the lack of posting. Maybe if I knew people actually stopped by and read this thing I might be more motivated to write often but really I started this blog for me to vent and I haven't felt like venting for awhile so I think thats a good thing. I'm having a good summer then :) Time to get back to the ole 8-4 and get some shit done before I leave today.
