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I was thinking

I have been thinking about what I want to really talk about on here. I love to work out all my little issues and basically write up everything that happens between me and the bf so I can sort everything out in my own head. On the other hand I want to start reminiscing about the good old days, days when I used to be galvanting around town, just me and the girls, taking in movies, drinking blue slushies and chatting up boys. The nights that I spent dancing my way from one bar to the other all across town, from the streets to the stages just having a blast. I miss the old times and I want to share them. I have to buckle down and write something up, time to pencil in that half hour a day it will take to recall my memories of a really great event that occured in my life to make me who I am today. I'll do it tomorrow, hahaha.... the great procrastinator at work yet again! :)

Back to life

Back to life
Back to reality
Back to life
Back to reality


Remember that song? Its been going through my head lately, not exactly sure why but it has. I have had a great weekend and a not so great one at the same time. Friday night I was dreading going home, knowing that I was going to be sleeping all by myself that night because the bf was gone to Toronto, I was in utter denial that I would have a good night and actually be able to get a good sleep. Nevertheless I get in the door and what awaits me but a huge valentines day surprise, early of course since the bf was going to be gone for that almighty day. Thursday night we were supposed to go out and have a night of dinner and movie but it never happened, I had a sneaky suspicion it wasn't going to happen so I went home expecting to be dissappointed and I was right on that account. The bf wanted to stay in and start packing and he ended up going to his parents and grandmothers house for most of the night, that left me to my own devices and anger, sometimes he can be such an inconsiderate clod I just want to wash my hands clean of him and everything that we have together. Well anyway he knew I was pissed at him so when he came home he had a movie for us to watch together, of course it was a movie he wanted to watch but not necessarily something I was interested. Oh well it was the thought that counted. I was uber cranky because Aunt flow was especially ornery that night and all I wanted to do was curl up in bed, under the covers with the lights off and the fan going and just cry and moan and sob. I squashed those feelings and made the best of things. That night I went to bed, conked out as soon as my head hit the pillow and woke up feeling drained even more. That leads to Friday night, I wasn't expecting anything because I was still kind of steaming about what happened the night before so I got home and got ready to throw my gloves in the wicker basket and my purse on that table when I was startled into tears by my , streamer, balloon and present decorated living room. I love that he still decorates the whole living room for me for Valentines day and I was so surprised that he went to all the trouble seeing as how we left that morning upset with eachother. I ended up with oodles of candy and stuffed frog dolls and The 2nd season of full house on DVD. I loved that show. He even bought me a wooden heart to paint as I wished.. Along with little notes. Now I always take pictures of my Valentines day surprises but I knew full well he had taken the camera with him. I found a note stating that he had taken pictures of everything before he left because he knew I would want them. Awww I know sweet right. I got my china rose and new charms for my bracelet it was great and I was so emotional it was crazy. I wipe the tears from my eyes and head into the bedroom to get ready to head to the gym and open the door to even more of a surprise. A streamer and heart pebbled heart created on the blue comforter on the bed, along with even more presents. I was utterly spoiled and I loved it. Later on that night I got a call from my friend 'Lic who was picking up the bf and his brother-in-law from the airport, I got to talk to him and say thank you. That was 6 days ago now and I haven't heard from him since. Valentines day came and went without a call or an email and I know I shouldn't be upset about that, he is afterall coming home tonight but I was little upset that he didn't want to spend the 55 cents to a dollar just to say that he was thinking of me and he loved me. Oh well.


I did head out to the local skating rink at lunch today with some co-workers to do some noon skating. It was a blast! As per usual just as I start getting good and start to pick up the speed its time to get off the ice. Oh well I am soooo going again on Friday. Hopefully I can become an expert by spring hahaha.

Count down

So I'm sitting at home last night thinking about the weekend and realize that omg! its Weds already! Time has been flying by, the bf is leaving tomorrow with his brother-in-law to go to Toronto and Markham for 5 days for a course. I have been working meticulously on my scrapbook for my aunts birthday coming up in March. It seems that whenever I get two pages done I all of a sudden have more pictures and have to find room and try to match the themes of past pages that deal with the same time period that I was working on with the pictures. Never ending it is... hahaha... anyway not much else is happening right now, I have been uber busy with work and have actually been good about going to the gym three times a week yay me! Scrapbooking and life in general takes up the rest of my time and thats why the weeks and months are just flying by, routine will do that to you. Tonight though there will be glitch in my routine, the bf and I are celebrating Valentines day early so we're going out for dinner and a movie tonight. I'm uber excited, now if Aunt Flow wouldn't mind not causing me painful cramps and let me have some room to breathe possibly I could have a great time. *sigh* Thats life in my little universe. Well time to get back to work...

Writing sweet release

Darkness creeps across the warm ground bringing with it the cool air of the night As the daylight fades from the sky and the first stars peep over the horizon the birds chirping begin to diminish in a soft crescendo and the night noises begin to take over. Sitting alone in my chair I inhale the night breeze, enjoying the scent of the chimney smoke just starting to waft on the shafts of air drifting by. Spring yet not quite spring, the days have warmed the nights are still caught in a limbo of winter coldness. I await the joy that end of day brings, I long for the warmth found in the arms that hold me, I yearn for the touch that always makes me feel alive and secure.